Firstly I want to apologize for this update is a bit late, I'm left typing one handed which is slowing me down a lot. As I mentioned in my March post, I'd injured my wrist. I now know I'd actually dislocated it, popped it back in myself without realizing until the pain set in, and trapped a nerve. Clearly if something has a 0.01% of happening, I will do it. Thankfully its my left wrist and I'm right-handed.
Today I'm going to talk about the first big hurdle I've overcome, running outside. Some people may be a bit confused by this being a hurdle, but I have a feeling quite a lot of you will agree that gasping for air in public is not a comfortable thought. The reason for this is probably the same as why a lot of people are nervous about going to a gym for the first time; the fear of everyone watching you. After my first visit to the gym when I was 17, I got over it there, but somehow running is different. Mainly because I've never been a 'runner' I'm self-conscious. The first time I ventured out I almost had 'first day at school' nerves. I knew I was going to resemble a chain-smoking snail as I puffed along I didn't really want everyone in the local area to be witness to it. I decided to stick to a relatively quite trail near my house. I've now ran along it quite a few times, and while I'm still not comfortable to run along the main road, I'm certainly more confident.
Gradually I'm coming to the same conclusion that I reached when I went to the gym, everyone's too busy focusing on themselves to think about you too. My stamina improving has probably helped ease my nerves, rather than sit at home thinking about starting running but letting my anxiety win, I've taken the first steps. Even Mo Farrah had to start somewhere. Although my starting point and goal may be radically different to his, I've made a positive start. Whilst my fitness has increased, I've notice my confidence outside of running have improved too. Some thing's I used to think about avoiding through worrying about what other's think, I won't, and that can only be a good thing.